Little T and my Mom have been with me in Santa Rosa for my birthday and other reasons I’ll explain when I’m feeling better, but I hope you’ll excuse me if I write for a second about something that happened to us today. I can’t sleep because it’s on my mind. It’s awful and sad, so if you’re sensitive (like me) you may not want to read.
The thing is, we were leaving Santa Rosa and driving in the middle of the afternoon on a seemingly safe street, when we witnessed a man take his life with a gun. We found out later through the news that he had committed a robbery and was walking around the street waving the gun around. When he was confronted by a police officer, he made the decision to end his life. The car in front of us screeched to a stop, so we were sadly there when everything happened. It was something I never wanted to see in my lifetime. Something that no one should have to see. It happened fast, and we were so shaken up that we didn’t know what to do except drive until we were somewhere safe. But where can it possibly feel safe after experiencing something like that? We made it to my mom’s six hours later and we’re all physically okay, but this experience has shaken our world. I am looking forward to being home tomorrow so I can give Big T a hug and feel like everything is going to be okay.
So friends, I have a few scheduled blog posts coming up (which will explain why I may seem cheerful when I’m feeling anything but cheerful), but I’ll probably be taking a week off blogging while I pull myself together. I know you’ll all understand.
I’m sending out extra hugs into the cyber world tonight~Momma J
Big, big hug. I know how difficult it must be. I witnessed once a car accident, when a car hit a man crossing the street. It was hounting me, I was crying like crazy after it. the images are still coming back sometimes, but without the pain and heaviness anymore.
Take the time you need. Hugs :* [owca]
Momma J said:
I’m sorry you had to see that, it’s awful. I think what’s hard too, is that it broke our feeling of safeness. The idea that you can be driving down a street feeling safe one second, and then hearing and seeing gun shots the next moment…my fingers are still shaking.
Forget about it. Put it away in a box at the back of your mind and mark it “To be opened when I am ready.”
You are all wonderful people, especially my favorite person in the whole world, Little T. You and your mom are so loving and caring I know it must be taking a toll on the both of you. Remember this event had nothing to do with you and yours. Look at all the amazing, joyous people and things in your lives. Rejoice in the moment, then the next and the next and so on.
When you feel a little calmer, safer, stronger you may want to revisit this sad event if only to remember how very luck you all are.
YOU ARE LOVED!!
What a traumatizing thing to witness!! Hope you are feeling better today!
B. Loren said:
My thoughts are with you, your mother, Little T, and the rest of your family.
Unbelievable!! We must meet with wine when you return!!
Just get back to your routine, try to not feed the memory. Many studies say that talking about bad event might not be that therapeutic and more like engraving it more vividly in your brain. don’t know if I sound rude here, but it’s my way to say good luck, get better by any means.
So sorry about the whole situation.
Take the time you need. Your mind will try to work out the tragedy you witnessed. I am so sorry you and your mom saw such a tragic turn of events.
You know best if you need to talk about your feelings and thoughts or if you need quiet time to heal.
Take care of yourself and remember to be kind to yourself as you heal.