I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has reached out to me on this blog, through facebook, e-mail, phone, and in person to help me get through this past week. I’m so grateful to have all of you in my life. It’s been a hard week, thank you so much for understanding how important my Angel was to me, and recognizing the loss that I’ve felt. I love you guys.
I lost my sweet girl yesterday. My heart aches this morning and I wish we’d had more time together. She was one amazing companion. There will never be another like her. I wrote more about my Angel over at Circle of Mom’s, in case you want to hear her story.
Agh, I’m sorry I’ve been gone. I didn’t want to depress you all with my cat. Even though it’s been hard, there have been good moments that I thought I’d share:
Little T’s decided to skip bike riding and go straight to car driving:
On an early morning adventure:
I love how Little T colors with such gusto and intensity.
Playing trains with Grandma K:
Hard at work:
I went to visit Little T’s Godmomma at work, and discovered her and Traci had posted pics of Little T on their door. :p
By the end of the night, the photobooth guy was like….you guys again? teehee
Little T…or the Statue of Liberty?
My little nephew.
Fountains have the ability to entertain Little T for five minutes. I’ll take it.
Enjoying time with Miss Angel kitty:
This past Friday, Little T and I visited the Orange County Ronald McDonald House to learn about HP’s E-smile program. The Ronald McDonald House provides comfort and shelter to families who have terminally ill children at a nearby hospital. Families can stay at the home for free (they do ask for a 5$ donation a night, but this is optional), so they don’t have to commute long distances back and forth to be with their children. Through the HP e-smile program, people can send pictures, cards, and letters of encouragement to the families staying at the Ronald McDonald House. For a short time, HP is donating one dollar for every picture or card that goes through.
Here’s the wall of e-smile cards at the OC house. A few of the parents who were staying during our tour said this wall of smiles meant so much to them:
There are several ways to send a picture or a note, and it only takes a minute or two!
- Download the e-smile app for your phone:
- Visit the HP Esmile Website and upload a picture or message.
- E-Mail your photo or message to: RonaldHouseOC@eprintesmiles.com
While I was there, I downloaded the mobile phone app and sent an esmile of Little T smiling for everyone to see. If you want to help volunteer in other ways, they’re always looking for groups to come and cook breakfast, lunch, or dinner for the families that are staying. They especially need volunteers who can cook breakfast. They also need gas card donations for families who have to travel back and forth to the hospital, and new toys to be given to children on their birthdays or the holidays.
What a great way to support parents who are going through a crisis, and it’s such a clever idea of HP. So please, if you have a minute, take a few seconds to send the Orange County Ronald McDonald House a picture or a note. They do great work over there.
Cats know how to obtain food without labor, shelter without confinement, and love without penalties~- W. L. George
My friend Kari called me when she heard about Angel (my cat). She told me to take an entire day off to spend time with Angel and shower her with love. So, Big T stayed home and watched Little T, and I sat in my room and gave Angel 100% of my attention. I put her on the windowsill so she could look outside, I gave her chicken, and I petted her all day while she purred in my lap. It was a bittersweet day. I know the next few weeks are going to be hard. She’s taking steroids right now, but they said to expect them to only help for a week or two. It helped though to have one day with her, where it was just me and Angel. It was like old times, when we lived together on my own during my early 20′s. I can’t begin to tell you how much my heart hurts right now, but I know the reason I feel this way is because of how much I love her.
But yeah, you’ll have to excuse me when I say that this sucks. This totally, totally sucks.
My blog was nominated over at Circle of Mom’s for the top ten adoption blogs. If you have a moment, click the link and give me a quick vote. It only takes a second, I promise! You can vote once a day if you like. Thank you so much.
Thanks everyone who voted, but circle of Moms sent me this e-mail this afternoon:
After serious consideration, we have decided to cancel our Adoption Blogs by Moms – 2012 contest. Our Top 25 program is meant to celebrate, connect, and support mom bloggers. Following some feedback from participants in our 2011 contest, we decided to make this year’s Top 25 more inclusive. In doing so, we unknowingly stepped into a very sensitive issue and debate, and we apologize to all the moms who have been offended, no matter what your position on adoption is. We’re committed to finding a way to give all parties in the Adoption Triad a voice on Circle of Moms. If we run a Top 25 Adoption Blogs in the future, we’ll consult with mom bloggers in each part of the Adoption Triad on how to create a supportive contest where all bloggers would feel welcome and respected by Circle of Moms and by all participants. We appreciate the time and energy every participant put into this contest during the past week, and we sincerely regret that we can’t reward those efforts in the way we had planned to when we launched the contest.
We will be closing the contest at 3pm PST today and all blogs will be removed from the contest page.
The Circle of Moms Team
In sadder news, I’m taking the day off so I can give my full and uninterrupted attention to my cat. Big T is watching Little T, and I’m hanging out in my room and showering her with tuna, catnip, and anything else her kitty heart desires. She is sitting next to my feet right now, my poor baby. I just can’t imagine her not being here anymore. Ugh, this day…it’s awful. Please keep us in your thoughts, it’s been a tough week around here.
This week has been rough. My beautiful cat, who has been my friend throughout my 20′s and into my 30′s, is dying. I was dreading this week because I knew it was time to take her to the vet, and I knew it wasn’t going to be good news and that it was going to lead to lots of awesomely expensive tests. To complicate things, I don’t have a sitter and had to take Little T with me. He made it so hard. He’s usually very good but was having a bad day for some reason. He was crying and fussy and couldn’t sit still. He wanted my iphone but he didn’t want my iphone, and being quiet was the last thing he wanted to do. He was being so loud that the vet had to take Angel into another room to listen to her heart. Isn’t it crazy how parenting can sometimes turn a difficult task into an overwhelmingly impossible one in .03 seconds?
I knew from the vet’s face that it was bad news when he came back in the room. He said Angel had heart failure, and that we had to go to the animal emergency room. I called Big T who was home sick, and asked him to come and help me with Little T. We went to the animal hospital together and they said Angel needed a heart test, so this morning I’m driving two hours out to Carlsbad because that’s where their heart doctor is on Wednesdays. How can we afford this? We can’t. Ugh.
Despite everything, I had to go to a networking event last night. I was able to pull myself together for a few hours until the way home. That’s when I lost it. I mean, mascara running down my face, sobbing-into-the-steering-wheel-lost-it. Ugh.
For Easter we spent the day with Big T’s family at Grandma K’s house. We weren’t going to be able to eat a lot of the food there, so we made a vegetable pot pie and orange and strawberry cupcakes from Vegan Cupcakes Take Over the World. I had bought these Peter Rabbit Cupcake Holders a year ago, and I was really looking forward to using them:
The cupcakes turned out delicious, there were only a few lonely cupcakes left at the end of the night.
As always, Grandma K’s backyard was beautiful.
We’d practiced opening Easter Eggs with Little T earlier in the day, so he ran to the yard when he saw that we’d put all of the eggs out there. In the eggs we had fruit sweetened vegan jelly beans, stickers, bunny grahams, and some vegetable snack crisps.
Little T wasn’t the only one who enjoyed the Easter Eggs:
After the Easter Egg hunt, we caught up with family members:
And Little T played trains with his Uncle D:
And then he played with Dad:
We always end the night by sharing a song from each family member in the group. This year Little T even had a song. It was “Nice N Clean” by Chromeo. Little T loved to dance to everyone’s music, he has the Night at the Roxbury head bob down pat.
I hope you all had a great weekend, and a great Easter for those of you that celebrate.
Yesterday was our third anniversary, but everything has been so crazy around here that we completely forgot to make plans. My mom, who knows me so well and knows how busy it’s been, sent me an e-mail telling me not to forget to take the time to celebrate. So at the last minute, our friends Michelle and AJ offered to watch Little T while we had a quick dinner/dancing date together at California Adventure.
We started out with a glass of wine and some funny faces.
Then we moved over to ElecTronica:
And then we tested out our hot dance moves. I think Little T would have been proud.
It was only two hours, but it was one of the best dates we’d had in a long time and turned out to be a surprisingly awesome forgotten anniversary.